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12WBT day nine – Weigh in!!

Jun 30, 2010 12WBT

Well today was weigh in day. I was ultra nervous because even though on a mental level I know that I have eaten well all week and that I have exercised (not as much as I should have, I KNOW that) there is still the horrible fear in the back of the mind that says “what if”. What if I didn’t eat well enough, what if I didn’t count my calories correctly, what if I just didn’t exercise enough, what if, what if, what if? So I jumped on the scales this morning full of trepidation, closed my eyes and realised that I just couldn’t stand there wondering, I had to look. I opened up my eyes and was so damn happy when I saw that I had lost 1.4kg. I suppose that there in the back of my head was the hope that I had lost a lot more, but I am happy with that loss, I think it’s a realistic loss that I can keep up for a while. I’ve never been that keen on the way that shows like The Biggest Loser have people dropping drastic amounts of weight in such a short time. The way I see it is, it took me a long time to put this weight on, it’s going to take me a while to shift it. Plus there is that horrible thought about saggy skin, and if losing weight a bit slower, means that my skin gets a chance to catch up and shrink then that’s all good too.

So how did everyone else do on weigh day?

And now for my stats of the day:

Tags: Daily stats, Weigh-in, Weight Loss

12WBT day eight – In pain and not happy

Jun 29, 2010 12WBT

Today was a crap day. Wisdom tooth is giving me absolute grief today and there is just no care factor. Not a great way to spend the day before weigh in. But there you have it. Went to work, came home, did dinner and now I’m going to bed. No exercise. Am so NOT looking forward to weigh in tomorrow. Stats for the (miserable) day below:

Tags: Daily stats, Stuff ups

Rain rain go away

Jun 29, 2010 Musings

Well, Mother Nature has put a bit of a dampener on things today and gotten in the way of my plans. Let me just say that I am none too impressed with her form at the moment. It’s pouring down with rain here so I have cancelled my lunch time walk. Now I’m a bit of a loss with what to do with myself. I rely on these walks to get me out of the office and to help me bump up my calories burnt for the day, but I’m just not really keen on walking in the rain, even with an umbrella.

To top that off, one of my wisdom teeth are playing up and I have got almighty pain shooting down the side of my face and throat and neck. I’m a wuss and I just want to go home to bed. This is turning into a not so very good day *sigh*

12WBT day seven – Feeling great

Jun 28, 2010 12WBT

Woohoo I am officially into Week 2 of the 12WBT challenge and I feel absolutely great today. I had so much more energy and the hunger thing is starting to wane a little and I’m just feeling all round positive. A new and exciting feeling for me being all positive, it’s just great, I could get used to it.

Had lunch with a great friend today, who is also taking part in the 12WBT and it was great to sit down, and have a chat with her, face to face, rather than just over forums. I love love the forums, but it’s also nice to have a real person to speak to about the problems we are facing, and the successes we have had.

I have also realised that my fitness has increased in this one week. While it was easy for me to burn up 300 calories at lunch time at the beginning of last week, I have found over the last few days I really have to start working for those calories burnt now. Zumba had me sweating into my eyes and really working it, but it was still not a huge calorie loss, but hey, I’m fine with that because I know that my heart is improving and my fitness and my life expectancy with it. So all good. Anyway quite tired tonight and I do believe it’s nearly bed time so stats for the day here we go:

Tags: Daily stats, Fitness, Musings

12WBT day six – I think I might possibly die =)

Jun 27, 2010 12WBT

Today has been a WOW day. I didn’t do my Super Saturday smash it day yesterday, so I decided to do it today. My partner is a pretty keen bike rider (he’s also pretty fit so riding for him is no big deal) so I convinced him that we needed to go for one of his rides. I figured I’d be able to burn a few calories going with him, and it’s also outside in the fresh air. Apart from the fact that it’s exercise, I generally enjoy going for a small ride. So he was up for the ride, had the track all planned out, so off we went.

OMG did I regret asking him or what? I think I am possibly going to die from this bike ride. I admit I feel energised and absolutely fantastic that we have done the ride, but oh god oh god oh god, the pain is immense right now. We did a 16km round trip and I managed to burn off 1241 calories, which I don’t think I have ever burnt in my life. (Did I mention OMG THE PAIN…)

Eating hasn’t been a big deal for me today. I had baked beans and toast for brekkie and Nat’s lasagna for lunch. A pretty rich carb diet today, but I knew I was going to need that energy for the ride that. And boy did I or what. Did I mention – 16km – a major feat for me. I’m so proud of myself right now I could almost swing from the ceilings. Apart from the pain

I’m really looking forward to the week to come. I’ve been doing 12WBT for a week now and feel great. I know I’ve had my flat days, getting used to smaller portions and getting used to exercising. I know I’ve also let it slip a bit with the exercise and haven’t pushed myself as hard as I should have. But for a couch potato, I think I’ve done alright. I like to think so anyway. I’m sure Michelle Bridges would probably disagree with me and tell me that I SHOULD have done more. But while it’s not baby steps, it’s toddler steps for me.

Next thing for me to work on is to start getting my confidence back in relation to falling over. I need to try and get over this fear that every tiny little slip is going to end up with me falling and breaking a bone. I also really want to get the confidence to wear my high heels again. I miss wearing heels, but I’m so afraid of falling, I don’t wear them. I’m not sure these 12 weeks are going to help me fix that, but it’s something to work on.

So for those who are interested, below is our bike ride mapped out (who knew there were websites like MapMyRide – I love love love). As soon as I get them off my phone, I have a few photos taken of the scenery of the ride too. It really was absolutely gorgeous and a lovely day to be out there.

And let me also not forget – Daily food and exercise stats below ride map.

Tags: Daily stats, Exercise, Fitness, Proud moment