12WBT day eleven – Such a busy day

Well once again my lack of organisation has come back to bite me in the bum. I was so tired last night, needing to catch up on sleep and there was a serious lack of motivation on my part, so I didn’t get my lunch organised for today. I need to start realising that if I don’t get my lunch organised it’s going to make my lunchtime more stressful than it needs to be. I didn’t get my lunch ready at home, so I knew I’d have to go out and buy my lunch. So there went my lunchtime walk at the same time. I went to the cafeteria at work, and there was a serious lack of low calorie food, but I did manage to find some vegetarian vermicelli, which I think was an okay choice, considering the lack of choices.

So did I manage to fix things up at dinner time? No. Had to go to the shops straight after work, rush home, get dinner organised and then head straight out to the airport to get Mick’s daughter. So I got a cooked chicken from Woolies, a pre-made salad mix in a bag and a bag of wedges for Mick. But, and here comes the clunker, I caved and had some wedges. Oh. My. God. They were so good and tasty and yummy. I hadn’t realised until I put the first wedge into my mouth how much I had missed potatoes. So not the healthiest choice, but I’m going to use today as my treat meal day. So long as tomorrow I make better choices and get myself organised for the rest of the week.

On a more personal note, I found the most gorgeous pair of high black boots today, that I can actually wear, that do up and fit my fat lets. Black boots from City Chic, were $300 and I snapped them up for only $100. Am very proud of myself. So now for the daily intakes;

FoodCalories in
B2 slices Soy and Linseed bread with 1T Philly Garlic & Herb spread245
S1 Strawberry Forme satisfy yoghurt & SPC pears in lime jelly174
LVegetarian vermicelli300
S125g strawberries & 1 Weight Watchers Cherry Bakewell151
DRoast chicken, salad and wedges450
Total1320

ExerciseCalories out

No exercise today0
BMR1837
Total1837
Calories surplus/defecit-517

12WBT day ten – Late night, tired

Watched the midnight opening of Eclipse last night (very good movie, go see it if you haven’t) and am still having lots of pain with my wisdom tooth. Am extremely tired today, but it’s been a good eating day. My mid morning snacks are actually what I took with me to eat at the movie last night (had to have something to take my mind off being at the movies with no popcorn!) Am extremely tired and have no energy to even type, so here are the daily stats for the day:

FoodCalories in
B2 slices Soy and Linseed bread with 1T Philly Garlic & Herb spread245
S1 punnet strawberries and 40g stuffed olives93
LChicken salad sandwich375
S1 berry cheesecake Forme satisfy yoghurt90
DChicken Parmigiana220
Total1023

ExerciseCalories out

47.00 Zumba Cardio Party. Avg HR 132 (71%), Max HR 150 (81%)405
BMR1837
Total2242
Calories surplus/defecit-1219

12WBT day nine – Weigh in!!

Well today was weigh in day. I was ultra nervous because even though on a mental level I know that I have eaten well all week and that I have exercised (not as much as I should have, I KNOW that) there is still the horrible fear in the back of the mind that says “what if”. What if I didn’t eat well enough, what if I didn’t count my calories correctly, what if I just didn’t exercise enough, what if, what if, what if? So I jumped on the scales this morning full of trepidation, closed my eyes and realised that I just couldn’t stand there wondering, I had to look. I opened up my eyes and was so damn happy when I saw that I had lost 1.4kg. I suppose that there in the back of my head was the hope that I had lost a lot more, but I am happy with that loss, I think it’s a realistic loss that I can keep up for a while. I’ve never been that keen on the way that shows like The Biggest Loser have people dropping drastic amounts of weight in such a short time. The way I see it is, it took me a long time to put this weight on, it’s going to take me a while to shift it. Plus there is that horrible thought about saggy skin, and if losing weight a bit slower, means that my skin gets a chance to catch up and shrink then that’s all good too.

So how did everyone else do on weigh day?

And now for my stats of the day:

FoodCalories in
B2 Wholemeal muffins with 2t WW margarine & 2t Vegemite344
S1 small apple68
LThai beef salad310
S1 berry cheesecake Forme satisfy yoghurt90
DMeg’s Mediterranean Chicken & 1/2 Cup rice371
Total1183

ExerciseCalories out

23:17 lunchtime walk. Avg HR 135 (73%), Max HR 146 (78%)210
46:13 Zumba Cardio Party. Avg HR 135 (73%), Max HR 153 (82%)419
BMR1837
Total2466
Calories surplus/defecit-1283

12WBT day eight – In pain and not happy

Today was a crap day. Wisdom tooth is giving me absolute grief today and there is just no care factor. Not a great way to spend the day before weigh in. But there you have it. Went to work, came home, did dinner and now I’m going to bed. No exercise. Am so NOT looking forward to weigh in tomorrow. Stats for the (miserable) day below:

FoodCalories in
B2 Wholemeal muffins with 2t WW margarine & 2t Vegemite344
S1 small mandarine28
LNat’s Lasagna and 1 medium apple393
S1 Strawberry Forme satisfy yoghurt85
DSteamed fish with Asian vegetables plus 1/2 cup extra rice375
Total1225

ExerciseCalories out

No exercise today0
BMR1863
Total1863
Calories surplus/defecit-638

12WBT day seven – Feeling great

Woohoo I am officially into Week 2 of the 12WBT challenge and I feel absolutely great today. I had so much more energy and the hunger thing is starting to wane a little and I’m just feeling all round positive. A new and exciting feeling for me being all positive, it’s just great, I could get used to it.

Had lunch with a great friend today, who is also taking part in the 12WBT and it was great to sit down, and have a chat with her, face to face, rather than just over forums. I love love the forums, but it’s also nice to have a real person to speak to about the problems we are facing, and the successes we have had.

I have also realised that my fitness has increased in this one week. While it was easy for me to burn up 300 calories at lunch time at the beginning of last week, I have found over the last few days I really have to start working for those calories burnt now. Zumba had me sweating into my eyes and really working it, but it was still not a huge calorie loss, but hey, I’m fine with that because I know that my heart is improving and my fitness and my life expectancy with it. So all good. Anyway quite tired tonight and I do believe it’s nearly bed time so stats for the day here we go:

FoodCalories in
BPorridge with 2t brown sugar, 1/2 cup milk & small apple284
S1 Berry cheesecake Forme satisfy yoghurt90
LBeef & Sweet Potato wrap246
SPunnet of strawberries, 1 Skinny Latte123
DTuna pasta, with mustard and rocket274
Total1017

ExerciseCalories out

Lunchtime walk – 18:30 – Avg HR 130, Max HR 141155
Zumba 20 minute express – Avg HR 149, Max HR 159213
BMR1863
Total2231
Calories surplus/defecit-1214

12WBT day six – I think I might possibly die =)

Today has been a WOW day. I didn’t do my Super Saturday smash it day yesterday, so I decided to do it today. My partner is a pretty keen bike rider (he’s also pretty fit so riding for him is no big deal) so I convinced him that we needed to go for one of his rides. I figured I’d be able to burn a few calories going with him, and it’s also outside in the fresh air. Apart from the fact that it’s exercise, I generally enjoy going for a small ride. So he was up for the ride, had the track all planned out, so off we went.

OMG did I regret asking him or what? I think I am possibly going to die from this bike ride. I admit I feel energised and absolutely fantastic that we have done the ride, but oh god oh god oh god, the pain is immense right now. We did a 16km round trip and I managed to burn off 1241 calories, which I don’t think I have ever burnt in my life. (Did I mention OMG THE PAIN…)

Eating hasn’t been a big deal for me today. I had baked beans and toast for brekkie and Nat’s lasagna for lunch. A pretty rich carb diet today, but I knew I was going to need that energy for the ride that. And boy did I or what. Did I mention – 16km – a major feat for me. I’m so proud of myself right now I could almost swing from the ceilings. Apart from the pain 🙂

I’m really looking forward to the week to come. I’ve been doing 12WBT for a week now and feel great. I know I’ve had my flat days, getting used to smaller portions and getting used to exercising. I know I’ve also let it slip a bit with the exercise and haven’t pushed myself as hard as I should have. But for a couch potato, I think I’ve done alright. I like to think so anyway. I’m sure Michelle Bridges would probably disagree with me and tell me that I SHOULD have done more. But while it’s not baby steps, it’s toddler steps for me.

Next thing for me to work on is to start getting my confidence back in relation to falling over. I need to try and get over this fear that every tiny little slip is going to end up with me falling and breaking a bone. I also really want to get the confidence to wear my high heels again. I miss wearing heels, but I’m so afraid of falling, I don’t wear them. I’m not sure these 12 weeks are going to help me fix that, but it’s something to work on.

So for those who are interested, below is our bike ride mapped out (who knew there were websites like MapMyRide – I love love love). As soon as I get them off my phone, I have a few photos taken of the scenery of the ride too. It really was absolutely gorgeous and a lovely day to be out there.

And let me also not forget – Daily food and exercise stats below ride map.

FoodCalories in
B200g Baked beans in tomato sauce with 2 soy & linseed bread352
LNat’s Lasagna325
S1 Medium apple78
DBeef, creamy mushroom sauce & spinach & 200g sweet potato425
Total1180

ExerciseCalories out

2:10:54 Bike ride (16km round trip). Avg HR – 139 Max HR – 1591241
BMR1863
Total3104
Calories surplus/defecit-1924

12WBT day five – Feeling better

Today I felt so so so much better. I wonder if it could have anything to do with the fact that it was the weekend? I had so many other things to do that I didn’t have time to sit and think about food. I have definitely linked up the fact that I sit at a desk all day with time to think, and the fact that I literally only think about food all the time (there is nothing else to think about).

Today when I woke up I had so much energy and I didn’t feel at all hungry. I got up, got dressed and did my fitness test and felt great. Had a shower and then, and only then, did I have breakfast. Up until that point I hadn’t even thought about eating. I was a little disappointed with the time I did on my 1km time trial. I mapped out my track with the car, so I was happy with it, as it was around home and I knew the streets well. I got out there, started walking at a really good, quick pace and was just about to up the pace with a bit of jogging (big achievement for me – I never jog) and then I hit mud and started sliding. It knocked the wind out of me. All I could think was “Oh Shit, I’m going to fall and break my wrist again”. That was it. My speed slowed right down and I just couldn’t get it back up there again to even think about jogging. Once that fear got back in my head, it was all over red rover for me. I don’t know how to break this (irrational, I know) fear that I am going to fall again and hurt myself. It’s been 18 months since I did it. It’s not going to happen again like it did. But there we go, I let it get in my head and affect my time. I have to work on that for next time.

Overall had an okay day eating. Had to go to the shops to do food shopping today and had such a busy day, and we weren’t home in time for lunch, so we had to do the dreaded Food Mall. OMG the smells of that place nearly did me in. KFC, McDonalds, Japanese, Chinese, Italian, all my favourite foods. In the end I had a lamb yiros, with lettuce, tomato and a tiny tiny bit of garlic sauce. Had the chickpea rissoles for dinner and I have to say that I really quite enjoyed them. Very yummy.

So as I said earlier I did my fitness test today – and am sad to say that with everything else that I had on today I just didn’t get to do any other exercise. But my results for my fitness test were as follows:

1km time trial: 10min 46sec
Pushups: 26 (Intermediate)
(I have to modify my pushups as I have a plate in my right wrist. I have my left hand flat on the ground and my right fist on the ground)
Abdominal Strength Test: Stage 1 – Wrist to kneecaps (I did a whole ONE sit up)
Wall sit: 49seconds
Sit and reach test: -3cm (Intermediate)

Am really looking forward to seeing how much better I do in 4 weeks when I do the fitness test again.

And as usual, here are my daily food and exercise stats:

FoodCalories in
B200g Baked beans in tomato sauce with 2 min paninis342
L3/4 yiros with lettuce, tomato and 2t garlic sauce350
S1 Ferrero Rocher72
DChickpea Rissoles with salad250
Total1014

ExerciseCalories out

Fitness test125
BMR1863
Total1988
Calories surplus/defecit-974

12WBT day four – Feeling flat

Well I think there have been plusses and minuses for today.

The plus being that I didn’t feel quite as hungry today. In fact I actually coped quite well with the amount of food, so hopefully my stomach is starting to get used to the smaller sizes.

The minus of today would be that I did no exercise. I went to bed early last night (finally) and got a great nights sleep, but I just felt blah and run down all day. I would like to say that I’m following all of the rules and reading my list of excuses and their solutions, but I didn’t today. I felt like crap, so I sat out in the sun and read during my lunch break instead of going on a walk. Yes, I feel a bit guilty about it, but I don’t feel too guilty, because I finally did something that wasn’t obsessing about my weight. I needed that ME time again, as I feel as if I am just losing myself and becoming a psycho obsessed dieting drama queen. I miss me, the fun person, who would sit and eat a piece of cake with her friend if she needed to talk. I think during these 12 weeks I’m also going to have to learn how to juggle the two people I seem to be becoming.

Well enough introspective thoughts for the night – it’s Friday and it’s time to sit back, chill and watch a movie with my man (who I really miss just sitting with and chatting about things other than calories…..) So stats for the day:

FoodCalories in
BPorridge with 2t brown sugar, 1/2 cup milk & medium pear308
S1 Passionfruit Forme satisfy yoghurt94
LPumpkin soup227
S1 medium mandarine & 100g strawberries50
DNat’s Lasagna – modified slightly (more veggies)325
Total1004

ExerciseCalories out

No exercise today0
BMR1863
Total1863
Calories surplus/defecit-859

12WBT day four – Starting to hit me

Oh today I was hungry. So very very hungry. I’m sure that it’s not because I’m not eating, because I am, but I think rather, that it is because all I seem to be able to think obsess about is food. It is taking up all my thoughts and driving me stir crazy. I have never put this much energy into one thing before and putting all my energy into thinking about food, when I can’t eat all this food I want is starting to hurt my head. So tonight I’m just going to quickly post my stats up here, and then go and read a good book and take my mind off anything at all food related and just chillax. So, stats for the day:

FoodCalories in
BPorridge with 2t brown sugar, 1/2 cup milk & small apple284
S1 Passionfruit Forme satisfy yoghurt94
LAsian chicken soup340
SPunnet of strawberries53
DSpaghetti Bolognaise420
Total1191

ExerciseCalories out

33.5 minute walk324
13 minute bike ride 120
BMR1863
Total2307
Calories surplus/defecit-1116

12WBT – day three

Today was a day of mixed highs and lows for me. Overall I’m very very disappointed with myself. I’m proud of my weight loss and proud of the fact that I did the walk to our meeting with a lot more ease than I did last time. But I’m really disappointed with myself for having even half the muffin – I should have stuck to my guns and eaten my mandarine. I’m also really disappointed by the fact that I only did a half hearted workout tonight. I didn’t go for my walk at lunch, I sat down and did some reading, which, while it was lovely to do, meant that I missed out on 30 minutes of exercise. Then by the time I got home tonight, I really just wanted to crawl into bed and sleep. I know this is my own fault for staying up late watching the Grey’s Anatomy finale (but OMG how good was it), but because I was so tired, I just didn’t put the same effort into exercise that I know I should have. This just disappoints me. I think though that I am learning, and I’m also being a lot more honest than I normally would have been. I would have previously, just said that I did my workout and left it at that. At least now I am being more accountable, to myself and to anyone who reads this blog, which I think is an important step for me to move forward in my weight loss. So here we are with todays (dismal) stats:

FoodCalories in
BPorridge with 2t brown sugar, 1/2 cup milk & small pear291
S1 SPC Pears in lime jelly89
LPumpkin soup227
S1/2 blueberry muffin, 1 cup green tea, 1t sugar165
DAsian chicken soup340
Total1112

 

ExerciseCalories out
27 minutes of Biggest Loser DVD225
BMR1863
Total2088
Calories surplus/defecit-976