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Let the Christmas celebrations begin

Why does Christmas have to include masses of food celebrations. I mean really, aside from the gift giving aspect of Christmas, the only other thing I can really see happening is eating – eating lots and lots of food (of course, this eating is normally done with loved ones, but it’s still all about the food). Now I know I’m sounding a bit like the Grinch at the moment, and also sound like I’m complaining, but as someone who is trying to lose weight, I am already struggling – and it’s not even really Christmas yet!

I go to the shops and everywhere I look there is candy, biscuits, cakes, puddings, chocolate, rich deserts, dripping roasts and my favourite – mince pies! And I’m frustrated, because I just want to buy them all up and sit down at a table gobbling everything in sight, but I know that I can’t. So I’m getting frustrated, angry and just a little resentful, which really is not putting me in the Christmas spirit at all. I know that there would be people out there saying, well just buy one mince pie and eat that, make sure you count it into your daily calories, and work it off. To those people I say, I wish I could. But really, my self control is almost non-existant (otherwise I probably wouldn’t find myself 40kg overweight now would I?) I honestly feel like I can’t tempt myself, because I will cave in. Which just brings on that angry frustration again.

Last night we had my work Christmas dinner to attend. It was all planned weeks ago, before I had even contemplated doing 12WBT over the Christmas period, while I was stil quite content to blithely shove food into my mouth while trying to secretly convince myself that I wasn’t gaining weight and that it wouldn’t creep up on me and that I wouldn’t pay for it later (pfftttt, paying now I can tell you!). We had organised to go to a local winery who were putting on dinners where you could select from a few things on the menu and voila – instant fancy dinner. In the end we probably didn’t choose too badly and thankfully going to a winery, they don’t exactly serve up massive serving sizes, but let me tell you that I would definitely have gone over my calories yesterday.

I spent all day thinking and obsessing about food. Minimising my food intake – small fruity breakfast, little leftover serve for lunch, a snack of celery in the afternoon (with a smidge of cream cheese on it) and masses of water, all to compensate for this dinner last night. By the time we got there I was ravenous. But a funny thing happened – I didn’t gorge myself like I normally would have. As they brought out dish after dish (we had six dishes on the menu), I ate from each of the small serves very slowly. I didn’t take any of the extras that were offered to me (though I admit, I ate my bread roll – I was THAT hungry) and I had one alcoholic drink all night. I felt in control and very well full and satisfied when it was all over. So well satisfied in fact that I turned away from the chocolates that were on offer (OMG lush looking truffles too, that’s how serious I was, I turned down truffles) and I said no to dessert.

I did well – at least I think I did well, and I know I did well considering what the old me would have done. I didn’t lack for food, it was all excruciatingly delicious, I had great company while I was eating and I even allowed myself one alcoholic drink. So why do I feel like I was still missing out? On the one hand, something must be sinking into this brain of mine about eating properly and moderation and portion sizes, but on the other hand, something else in my brain is seriously lacking if I keep thinking that I was still missing out because I didn’t shovel food into my mouth, and it wasn’t all fries and schnitzels. I’m hoping that eventually something clicks in my head and it just happens and these stupid thoughts keep popping up.

So tonight, we’re off to a pizza night with friends. This one I’m really dreading, but I’m going to go through my list of 12WBT recipes and find some options that I can make. I will not undo my good work of last night! Nosireebob!

Oh and on other news – weigh in on Wednesday went really well. I was down 2.2kg – biggest loss for me in one week ever I think. Here’s to a good weigh in next Wednesday and here’s to Christmas finally being over so that the food shopping and eating can go back to some sense of normality!

Weigh in day

Previous weight: 107.0kg.
Today’s weight: 104.8kg.
2.2kg loss!

A loss… and a win (or two)

Tuesdays are supposed to be my super smash it day, the theory being that I get up first thing in the morning and go for a swim, do my 40 laps and then have a nice relaxing spa for ten minutes before heading home to start the day, whereupon I finish work and head back to the pool to do an aquaerobics class. That’s the theory anyway. The reality was that I spent way too long watching tv last night and ended up turning my alarm off this morning and sleeping. It was bad and it was the wrong thing to do, but I know my body well enough by now to know that if I had gotten up, by 2pm today I’d have been a walking zombie (note to self, get some more iron tablets from the chemist…) So I felt quite guilty this morning when I finally got up and Mick asked me what happened to my early morning session. I think the look I gave him was enough for him to know that this was NOT a conversation to have with me first thing without any coffee (bless him, he really is so patient and tolerant with me). So that was my loss.

But – and yes, there’s a but – I had a win. Actually I had two wins. One a physical win, and two more mental.

First off, I did actually make it to aquaerobics tonight. Got home from work and put up our new Christmas tree (not a lot involved really, it’s just a wooden one, that really doesn’t require decorations – I’m going for minimalistic this year) and pottered around and contemplated – I hate to admit it, I really did contemplate it – calling my mate and telling her that I couldn’t make it to aquaerobics. But that’s giving in and I can’t continue to do that or I’m never going to get where I want to go (and I’m still trying to decide exactly where I want to go) so I struggled through the laziness and went off to do the class. And I’m so glad that I did. It was just fantastic. I could really feel it in my core and I think I’m going to continue to feel it tomorrow. I feel so refreshed and pumped now, that I’m really sad that I didn’t go swimming this morning. But it’s okay, there’s always tomorrow and every day after that.

Second little win was a thought that I had on the way home from work. Normally, when I get home from work, I scoff down food. Sometimes it’s healthy, most times it’s not. I have no idea why I thought of it as I was driving home, but I suddenly realised that A) I only eat when I get home because it’s habit, not because I’m actually hungry and B) I haven’t done that since I started 12WBT and OMG I’m still alive and haven’t starved to death… Hmmmm. So that just made me happy, because I realise that I can come home and just do things, without having to shove food in my face and that habits can be broken. Not that I think this habit is broken yet, but it’s a work in progress.

Third little win, was again a mental thing, and actually happened last night. I was watching TV last night (the reason that I was up so late and missed swimming this morning, so maybe this isn’t a win after all…. Might call it a draw) in particular the documentary “Fat, sick and nearly dead”, about Joe Cross who started drinking fresh juice every day for two months. Not just drinking a little juice, but only juice. He stopped eating and just drank. He convinced another few people to do the same and the whole time I was watching it, I was thinking “Wow, what an easy way to lose weight” (okay, now that I’m not half asleep, rationally, I know that wouldn’t be easy, would require a lot of willpower – we know I don’t have much of that, read above to see my exercising willpower *sigh*) at the time, I really thought that would be great. I watched him lose so much weight in two months and kept thinking to myself. Two months, that’s eight weeks, that’s two weeks less than the end time of this round of 12WBT. I could totally almost get to my goal weight in that time just by drinking juice! I almost convinced myself that I should do it. But then I mentally slapped myself. What the hell was I thinking? Why would anyone in their right mind (and I’m really sorry if you’re a fan of Joe Cross – if you are, maybe stop reading now…) why would anyone who is mildly sane, willingly cut out every other food group except for fruit and veggies to lose weight? That’s all he was doing to start with, drinking juice. Not exercising, not actually cooking food up, cutting it up, chewing it and swallowing it. Just drinking. WHY? Personally, I think he took the cheat’s, easy way out (and again, I know it wouldn’t be easy…) And that’s where I’m counting my last win. For brief moments, I seriously considered cutting out my eating and just drinking juice for a couple months. But I’m so glad to say that I thought better of it. I love that on this program I don’t have to give up any food group. That I can learn about healthy eating, that I can still enjoy the occasional piece of chocolate if I so wish to. That I am learning about exercising and creating a healthy balanced life. So to Michelle Bridges, I say Thank you. Thank you for not getting me to only drink juice (and it really was vile looking juice too!)

Now here’s hoping that tomorrow morning I get my lazy butt out of bed at 6am and do some exercise.

Yummy ugly balls

Our weekly surprise for 12WBT is to create a snack. The rules were that we had to only have 5 ingredients and be quick to make. Well these technically don’t qualify because they have 10 ingredients and are not super quick to make, but I love these. They came about by a bit of an accident, I had so much dried fruit left over from another recipe and I bought Quinoa and had no idea what to do with it, so here we go:

Yummy ugly balls

Each ball is about 25g and has only 58 calories.
You should get 16 balls out of this mix.


  • 1/3 cup quinoa
  • 1/3 cup oats
  • 3/4 orange juice
  • 3 tablespoon craisins
  • 3 tablespoon prunes
  • 3 tablespoon dried figs
  • 1/8 cup almonds
  • 1/8 cup walnuts
  • 1 tablespoon maple syrup
  • 20g Dessicated coconut


  1. Pre-heat oven to 180 degrees (celcius).
  2. Place the quinoa and orange juice in a pan and cook the quinoa until it has soaked up all the orange juice.
  3. Meanwhile, chop (or blitz) the almonds (I use flaked almonds), walnuts, dried figs and prunes.
  4. Place in a bowl with the oats and add the cranberries. When the quinoa has soaked up all the juice add this to the mix.
  5. Let the mixture cool slightly and then add 1 tablespoon maple syrup to the mix and mix up well.
  6. Take a tablespoon full of the mixture and roll into a ball, flatten slightly and roll in the coconut.
  7. Place on a baking sheet and put into the oven to cook for about 12 minutes.
    (The cooking step is optional – you can just roll these into coconut and put in the fridge, but I like the extra crunch you get when you cook these).
  8. When they’re cooked, let them cool and put in the fridge.

So if you’re looking for something that’s maybe a little like a muesli bar, but with less calories and super yummy, then may I suggest these. And if you do make them, drop me a line and let me know what you think. Are my tastebuds just weird?

Some interesting food facts

Today’s daily food intake…

I did a little googling out of interest today to see just how many calories are in McDonalds food, because lately I’ve been having the biggest craving for a Triple Cheeseburger. Not just an ordinary cheeseburger but a triple cheeseburger. Ohh the gooey cheesy melting goodness and the extreme greasiness of one of those is just divine. Yes, I know they are so totally bad and unhealthy for you, but every now and then I just crave one. Normally of course I would give in to the temptation and go through the drive through and scoff down the cheeseburger before I get home so that no one knows I’ve had one. Then to cover up the fact that I’ve had one, I eat dinner too so I don’t look suspicious for not eating – because I am not one to miss my meals. That was back in the days when I wasn’t eating healthy and exercising though (mind you, there hasn’t been a great deal on the exercise front this week…), these days I don’t do such naughty things. I just dream about holding the cheeseburger in my hands and dream about the taste of it. Then I have to physically restrain myself from going down to Maccas and scoffing a whole crapload of food.

Now in case you’re interested here’s a bit of info about the calories in McDonalds (taken from their info sheet):



Big Mac 493cals/2060kj
Cheeseburger 284cals/1190kj
Double Cheeseburger 430cals/1800kj
Triple Cheeseburger Not even on the website! How ashamed of those calories must they be?
Grand Angus 630cals/2630kj
Mighty Angus 686cals/2870kj
Quarter Pounder 549cals/2300kj
Double Quarter Pounder 851cals/3560kj
McChicken 408cals/1710kj
Small fries 255cals/1070kj
Medium fries 368cals/1540kj
Large fries 453cals/1900kj
6 chicken nuggets 279cals/1160kj
Mustard sauce 66cals/275kj

Now let’s put some of this into perspective. When I used to go to McDonalds I would quite often get (apart from the triple cheeseburger [they were a 3am specialty!]) a Double Quarter Pounder meal, with large fries and a large coke. Sometimes if I was particularly hungry I’d also throw in a 6 pack of nuggets. The grand total of that dinner: 1657 calories (there are apparently 310 calories per large coke according to my Google research). That is not just a daily allowance of food, but a daily allowance of food, plus snacks and then the breakfast and morning snack of the next day. All rolled into one dinner! Bloody freaking hell!

When you look at the figures written down like that it’s really not hard to see how I managed to gain so much weight is it. Considering that wasn’t just a one off dinner for me. During my single times, living by myself I would quite often eat dinners like that, to a varying degree. Plus there was breakfasts of rolls with bacon, eggs and barbecue sauce, full fat latte and lunches of some sort of food court meal. I have to admit I never stopped to think how many calories there were in the dinners that I was eating, and I’m a little ashamed to actually put it out there and to read this. God it makes me feel quite sick, and thankfully the cravings for McDonalds have now gone.

Just something I thought I would share with you all.

12WBT pre-season task #6 – Kitchen makeover

So my task for pre-season task #6 – Kitchen makeover was to empty out my kitchen cupboards and the fridge of all my junk food and processed food. Food that I wouldn’t and couldn’t be eating on the 12WBT. Things like chips, chocolate biscuits, biscuits in general, juices and cordials and food that is just in general high in calories and fat and low in any real nutritional value.

I have to say that this was a pretty easy task for me. I don’t really have a lot of junk food in the house and the little that I do have in the house is the food that Mick likes to eat. I know that part of my task is to be ruthless and throw this food out, but I have two problems with this:

      A) I’ve paid good money for this food, I don’t want to waste it all by throwing it out. I have issues with throwing out food, for no real reason. I know that there have been times when I’ve bought fruit and vegetables and it’s gotten lost at the back of the fridge and finally I throw it out, but that’s not a purposeful waste of food. Throwing out junk food, while it’s still junk food, is to me – a waste.
      B) Mick likes to have the occasional packet of chips. Or cordial. Who am I to tell him that he can’t eat what he wants to? Mick is my number one supporter, and to be fair to him, when he does eat his chips, he doesn’t eat them in front of me, he’ll eat them elsewhere. Mick doesn’t have a weight problem, and is quite fit, so just because I’m not fit, I’m supposed to deny him food that he likes to eat occasionally? I can’t do it, I’ve tried, and I just can’t.

Thankfully, there was only two packets of chips in the cupboard and they are still there, all the way down the bottom where I’m not tempted to get them. The rest of the cupboard is full of lovely, healthy food and so is the fridge. In fact the fridge is happiest of all, full of fruit and veggies as it is!

Terrible munchies

Today’s daily food intake…

Weigh in day

Previous weight: 104.6kg.
Today’s weight: 103.4kg.
1.2kg loss

Ack, today I have had the worst munchies. I have been craving salt all day long. I’m putting it down to having popcorn over the last couple of days, which I easily get addicted to. I don’t normally go for the sweet sugary things, I’m not a huge chocolate lover, I like the occasional piece of cake, but I can’t eat brownies because I find them way to sweet for me. But put a packet of chips in front of me and watch me gobble the whole packet up. Without blinking! Today, if you had put that bag of chips in front of me I don’t honestly know that I would have been able to say no. I think I might have caved.

I had a bad start to the day. Turned my alarm off and didn’t get up to do my shufflin’ and when I finally did crawl out of bed when the other alarm went off an hour later I had the worst stinkin’ headache I’ve had in ages. I haven’t felt like that for a long time, but today it’s been hanging around like a bad smell. I’m working on a new website at work which means I’m sitting in front of the monitor all day staring at code and thinking and I’m starting to see the connection between the coding and the headaches. Methinks it might be time for me to start wearing my glasses again. But I’m happy because I didn’t cave in and get any bad munchie food to sit and eat at my desk today, just had a Carman’s muesli bar in the morning and that kept me going.

Not a lot on the exercise front sadly. I went to softball training tonight, and once again, ended up burning sweet FA in the form of calories. Seriously, we really don’t do anything at training, it’s such a waste of time, I could have been doing some proper exercise. I did speak to one of the ladies there tonight though who is a high school P.E. teacher and I asked if she does any person training. Turns out she is the coach of a B-Grade hockey team, and she said I’m more than welcome to come along and see if I like it and if I do then I can join the hockey team. Funny thing is, I’m seriously considering it. It means giving up Friday night food shopping because they play on some Friday evenings, and they play in rain, hail or shine, but I think I could like it.

Which is scary for me. Here I was only 6 months ago having never, ever in my life played a team sport, and having no interest in changing that fact, and now I find myself on the softball team (which okay I don’t really like, but am still considering returning to next season) and now I might possibly find myself on a hockey team. Yay go sporty me! Soon they will be calling me Sporty Spice hahaha *thump* (sorry I fell of the chair then I was laughing so hard…) but it’s all things to take into consideration for the future of my exercising.

Bookish goodness

Today’s daily food intake…

A couple of weeks ago I was watching the morning news when they had an interview with a lady called Ruth Field who had written a book called Run Fat B!tch Run. It was only a very brief interview and they didn’t really ask her any questions of great importance, in fact it was a pretty crap interview, but what really stuck with me was the title of the book. It sounded just like the book for me, something that would speak to me in no nonsense terms and tell me what to do. Even if it is in a very straightforward way.

So I jumped online, went to Book Depository (quite possibly the best ever bookshop in the world, free delivery people, free delivery!) and ordered it.

Guess what! It came today. I’ve only had a chance to have a quick look at the first few pages, but already, I think this might be the book for me. In particular, before you even get to the introduction, you get a pledge to sign, and boy do I love the straight talking in The Pledge.

On a side note, I did also order online late last week Michelle Bridges new The no excuses cookbook and it also arrived today, so it’s been a great day of bookish goodness for me. The recipes in this cookbook look divine and I can’t wait to read this one also and start making the recipes. Having had a quick flick through I’ve already picked my first breakfast that I’m going to make, just looks awesomely delicious and yummy – Sweet couscous with orange juice and dried fruit.

Now my big dilemma is which one do I read first, and when do I read them in between exercising, cooking and blogging? Help I need more hours in my day.

Chicken schnitzel

Today’s daily food intake…

Weigh in day

Previous weight: 106.9kg.
Today’s weight: 104.6kg.
2.3kg loss

YAY, great weigh in today made me very happy that finally my weight had stabilised and all that extra weight I put on last week came off, plus a wee little bit more 🙂 I was concerned after weighing in on Saturday and being up to 107.3kg that I’d done something wrong, but it seems all is good.

Having said that, tomorrow I am going to have to do some extra training that’s for sure. We went to the pub for dinner tonight and I had a chicken schnitzel. Oh god, it was fantastic! I enjoyed every single mouthful. Won’t be doing that again in a hurry I can assure you. But on the other hand, a nice meal out occasionally is going to happen, I’m not a hermit. So I’ll enjoy it when I do it, and work a bit harder the next day to make up for it.

Uneventful isn’t a bad thing

Today’s daily food intake…

Had quite the uneventful day today. Nothing exciting, nothing earth shattering, nothing at all really.

Which isn’t to say that’s a bad thing. Sometimes uneventful, plain days are a good thing. No stress, no crap, just a good old fashioned take it easy kind of day.

so that was today. Went to work, sat at my desk, fought with getting our company website (which I’m currently re-developing) to work with IE6 (not all that successfully actually), went home, got our meal plan ready for next week and did food shopping.

But the one thing that I did learn about myself today is a bad habit that I had no idea I have. When I build websites I go into a little world of my own. I will sit and obsessively code away for hours, working on one problem – again obsessively – until it’s fixed. When I’m in that little world at home I quite often forget about food, I’ve been known to go all day without eating when I’m doing things like this. But at work, it’s a different story. I’ve always had snackies at work. Maybe lollies, or chips, or nuts – something. And I still haven’t cleaned that draw at work out, so at the moment there is a little snack-pot of nuts in my draw.

As I sat down this morning and opened up my programs and started working on the website, I almost instinctively reached into the draw to grab out the snack-pot, so that I could nibble on the things in there as I worked. Thankfully I stopped myself in time, because that’s a high calorie snack-pot I have sitting there. It made me stop though, and that was when I realised that it’s a habit of mine. Not a habit at home, but it’s a habit at work, which I’m going to put down to the fact that when I was living in Adelaide my jobs were, shall we say, on the stressful side – and to combat this I would eat. And eat a lot. I don’t have that same problem here, my job here is great, I love the work and I have the freedom to work at my own pace without someone breathing down my neck, but apparently, I brought my bad Adelaide habits with me.

So the snack-pot is gone. Now I just have to start trying to remember that it’s not the thing to snack while I’m working.

Now if you’ll excuse me, I have a list of excuses that I need to work out and write down. I hate this pre-season task, but love it at the same time, because it really makes me think.

Loss and still eating crap

Today’s daily food intake…

Weigh in day

Previous weight: 109.1kg.
Today’s weight: 106.8kg.
2.3kg loss

Arghhh when will I learn? I got on the scales this morning and yay me, lost 2.3kg which was surprising considering my blow-out of a weekend and I was pretty super pleased about that. I’ve decided that rather than having a treat meal on Saturday’s I’m going to let myself have treat meal(s) on Wednesday’s. That way I have a week to work it off. I’m going to try and keep within my 1200 calorie limit, but if I do blow it, then I’m not going to cry about, just accept it and do some more exercise.

So what have I not learnt? How to eat sensibly when I go out. Usually Mick and I will go home and have lunch together, we’re lucky that we both get hour lunch breaks and get to take lunch at the same time (even though we work at different places) and considering that it takes me a whole 3 minutes and 45 seconds to drive to work – oh yeah, I timed it – we don’t really run short of time. But me, with my not being super organised realised that we didn’t have all the ingredients for our healthy lamb and salad dinner (from The Biggest Loser cookbook, very yummy btw), so we had to go to the shops to get the ingredients. So while we were out, we thought we’d get lunch and eat on the beach. (If you’ve never been to Port Lincoln, you should totally come over, it’s gorgeous here, beaches everywhere).

So what did we get for lunch? A nice takeaway salad from somewhere? No. Maybe a low fat/calorie Subway? No. A steak sandwich and chips? Surely not you say. Not being on 12WBT, you wouldn’t be that silly would you? Yes, yes I would be that silly. So I have no idea how many calories was in that lunch, but I’m guestimating it at about 800 odd calories. And I thought my hotdog was bad?

So, note to self. Bloody well make sure that I have all the ingredients I need for dinner, so I don’t have to pop to the shops at lunch and run out of time to get a healthy lunch from home. If I do have to go out at lunch, then bloody hell girl, start making some better choices.

I will learn. Eventually.

Eating out is not eating smart

Today’s daily food intake…

The last few days haven’t been the best for me. We went over our download limit for the month (thanks to some Skyping and Zumba downloading…) so I didn’t have any internet at home. I could plug my phone in and tether it to use some of my phone’s download limit, but it’s not the quickest, and I don’t get that much download so I had to conserve that as well.

The thing I learnt from the little experience is that a big part of being successful in eating right is the support that I get from forums, and now from Facebook. When I feel like eating something bad, or I have questions about how many calories might be in some food, I can just ask someone, and there is generally a quick response. Which really helps me.

Another thing I’ve learnt lately is that I cannot succeed if I don’t have a written menu down, and am not organised with my shopping. If I don’t have the correct food in the house, I make stupid choices.

Like on Saturday. Mick was working this weekend, and on the weekends he works, I normally bring him lunch and eat with him. I wasn’t organised this weekend and was out and about doing things, so when lunch time rolled around I thought oh hell, I need to quickly buy something to bring to Mick. My first thought was Subway. So in I went, and straight back out I went. The line was from the cash register, all the way back to the door. I didn’t have that much time to wait before his lunch break. So I stupidly went to Wendys and got a hotdog. Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Did you know that in a standard Wendys hotdog there are 601 calories? That’s without adding any of the condiments. Holy shit. No wonder I put weight on, I used to eat these like they were going out of fashion.

Other bad choices over the weekend include:

  • full fat, homemade lasagna on Friday night (technically not my fault, we were out for dinner at a friends house – to be fair I only had a small slice and a lot of green salad)
  • Wendys hotdog for lunch on Saturday.
  • Sunday night dinner was going to be a roast, but we went to the beach and didn’t get home till late, so what did we do? Yep, went to the fish and chip shop – which was close – so we got a big pasta dish from the place next door instead.

Organisation and internet. These are definitely going to be the keys to my success. And maybe getting fast food places to put a ban on me entering their shops…

Started with a loss, ended with an aha moment

Today’s daily food intake…

Weigh in day
Previous weight: 111.1kg.
Today’s weight: 109.1kg.
2.0kg loss

I’ve learned a few of things today.

The first is that even though you might be hungry at breakfast time, don’t go overboard. Perhaps the cheese and Vegemite and butter was overdoing it. A little.

The second is that I need to learn to eat slower. I noticed while I was eating my lunch that I was eating as if there were a hundred hungry people behind me just waiting for me to put my fork down so they could grab it out of my hands and finish my lunch off. I don’t know why I eat so fast, but if I ate slower, I think I may actually eat less, because I’d give my body a chance to actually realise it’s full, before it gets over-full.

The third is that I can’t rely on Softball training on Wednesday afternoons to give me any kind of a work-out. Especially when only four people turn up and you don’t actually get to train. There is another day of exercise wasted – v. unimpressed about this too. I was planning on giving myself one day of rest over the weekend, but now I will have to make up the time that I missed out on today.

Last, but not least. When we go out for dinner I need to make smarter choices. Either that, or not go to pubs for dinner.

Tomorrow is going to be a very clean eating day for me I think. Might try and stay off the carbs (after breakfast, I need my carbs at breakfast), and stick to some lean protein and veg. Lot less calories tomorrow is a must.

Oh and one more thing that I just thought of – just because it’s weigh day and I lost weight, does not mean I should reward myself with food. (Let’s revisit that cheese and Vegemite thing…)

12WBT R1,2011 Day one and two

Yesterday was the kickoff of Round 1, 2011 of the 12 Week Body Transformation, so it was the first day of the next 12 weeks for me, concentrating on my healthy eating and exercising. I did quite well yesterday, except for a little slip up of a chocolate cupcake, which was for my birthday (which was on Sunday, yay for squeezing the day in before official kickoff). It’s the tradition at work, when it’s someone’s birthday, there is cake. I’m kind of guessing that it’s like that for a lot of workplaces, and ours is no different. But I ate well for the rest of the day and came home and did Zumba, so I felt accomplished.

Today was different though. I haven’t really done much in the way of eating, and when I did, it was all good and healthy. Of course, I was totally stressed about a job interview that I was having. But then I got home after the interview and there was food in sight. And that food went straight into my mouth.

And now I want to cry, because I totally just sabotaged myself, and I know better than to use food as an excuse or to forget things. And I want to cry because the job interview just didn’t go well, which means that in a little over 6 weeks or so, I will have to go back to a job I hate doing, and earn about $15,000 less a year and I’m totally stressing myself out about it and all I feel right now is this overwhelming sense of despair and I don’t want to continue on with the program or anything else.

How does a person go from having such a fantastic weekend and birthday with wonderful friends to just wanting to crawl into a hole and forget herself? Here’s hoping tomorrow (and weigh day) are better.

12wbt day sixty four – I’m still alive

It’s true everyone, I am still alive and I am still eating healthy (mostly). Actually that’s a bit of a lie. I’ve not had the best week. I got another dose of the flu last week, and I tried to make the right decisions food wise, but I don’t think I really did. There was yoghurt – full fat and there were Subway cookies, 2 of them and god they were good.

Then we decided to go camping over the weekend, and can I say BRING ON THE CARBS. I made damper twice and loaded it up with cheese and it was delicious. The lamb stew in the camp oven was divine, and actually very healthy loaded up as it was with vegetables. The bacon and eggs for breakfast the next day was even better 🙂

On the exercise front, well it’s been a no show all week. Trying to get the energy just to breathe was hard enough without attempting exercise. But I went back to the gym last night and had a great workout in my BodyCombat class. No gym tonight unfortunately, but back again tomorrow night, skipping Thursday for the hairdressers, then back again on Friday night to get my personal program sorted out by a personal trainer – and I can’t wait for that 🙂

On other news, I have been busily working on a quilt for my impending niece or nephew. My little sister only has 6 weeks left before the bundle of joy arrives, so I really need to get a move on with it. I have the top of the quilt all pieced and sewn together, so now I just have to piece the back, baste it, quilt it and then bind it. So a fair bit to do still, while trying to incorporate work and the gym. I need a few extra hours (and the energy to go with them) in every day. Photos of the quilt shall follow.

Good luck with weigh day tomorrow everyone. I’m certainly not looking forward to it I know 🙁 such a bad stuff up week, but I own it. And it was still worth it for the fantastic weekend away camping.

12WBT day thirty five – Feels like starting again

After being on holidays and then being sick all last week, today felt like I was starting the 12 week challenge all over again. Back were the hunger pains, back was my continuous thinking about food and back was my obsessing about food and exercise. The weird thing is, while I was away on holidays and while I was sick, I wasn’t even hungry, I would eat my breakfast and that was it, there was no more thought about food until sometime in the afternoon when I would think it’s time for lunch. But now that I’m back at work, in the humdrum that is work life, I’m thinking all about food again. This isn’t a good thing. However, life goes on and I’m just happy that I got through the day and stuck within my calories and thought about doing exercise. Okay I didn’t do any, but I thought about it – a good start lol. So daily stats for today:

FoodCalories in
BPorridge with 2t brown sugar, ½ cup milk & medium apple 307
SBodywise bar121
LLeek and Potato soup213
SMedium orange68
DCajun chicken, sweet potato wedges and salsa300

ExerciseCalories out

No exercise0
Calories surplus/defecit-802

12WBT day thirty four – I had a burger today

Oh yes, it’s true everyone, today I had a burger. Once again we were out and about at lunch time, so we stopped in at a pub that we haven’t been to for a long time, and had a pub lunch, which for me consisted of Burger and chips (it also came with a beer, but I substituted the beer for a Coke Zero lol). And you know what? It was freakin awesome! Yep, it was bad food, but god did it taste good. I have to say that I’ve really enjoyed the food that we’ve been having on the 12WBT, but there is something very comforting in going back to good old pub food.

So having said how awesome it was, I should also say, I didn’t eat the whole thing. This burger was enormous! I don’t think I ate even half of it. I also only had a few sneaky chips that were served with the burger. And to be honest, I really didn’t enjoy the chips. All I could taste when I ate them was fishy oil and it made me feel sickly. But god, that burger. MMMMMM.

I’m not going to apologise. I knew what I was doing when I ate it. I’m not going to make excuses. I probably could have found something healthier to eat for lunch (though having seen the pubs lunch menu I actually doubt that to be true), I’m going to say I had a burger and be proud that I didn’t eat the whole thing, that I only had a few chips and that I’m having a very lovely super healthy soup for dinner tonight to make up for it. I still fully embrace the 12WBT challenge, but I also have a life to live, and there are going to be times I am going to want to just let loose and enjoy eating “bad” foods. Today was one of those days. It won’t be the last time either I’m sure. But as for the rest of the day – super healthy all the way 🙂 Oats for brekkie and soup for dinner, with no snacks in between (who needs snacks after this burger):
Burger and Chips

12WBT days twenty five to twenty eight – Feeling like a failure

I have so many mixed emotions going on in my head right now I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I haven’t blogged for the last few days, because there wasn’t any point. I wasn’t going to be able to write how I had gotten in some great exercise, or how I had eaten fantastically. All I would have been able to say was that I was eating – crap food – but eating. Thrown in among it would be a bit of good food, and of course the thought that I should be eating this good food all the time. But even knowing that I should be eating healthier, and knowing that I can do it, that I have been doing it, the past week has just been hard and I admit that I have caved. Oh and let me not forget the no exercise bit. I didn’t do my mini milestone, and I haven’t done my fitness test. Those two things I can honestly put down to being sick, but it still doesn’t make me feel good that I’ve missed them.

I could make a lot of excuses, like how we have hardly been home, but out and about, coming and going at odd hours of the day. I could even use the excuse of how I have a raging cold, that is quickly turning into the flu, but the truth is, I was weak and I should have prepared better and not let the temptation get to me.

So that has brought back all my feelings of self doubt, feelings of failure, which is starting to affect me in my day to day life. I woke up this morning to go back to work for my first day after taking last week off, having the worst case of the flu. I have issues with my car not unlocking first thing in the morning, and of course, today was no different. I went outside to get in the car, and the doors wouldn’t open. I broke down. Just completely lost it. Sat there bawling my eyes out. So now I’m just trying to work out if my eating and lack of exercise is connected to these extreme emotions that I seem to be going through, or just because I’m sick.

I have decided though that I am going to use this last week as an example of how easy it is to get lulled into a false sense of security. That yes, there are going to be times in my life when I’m not going to be home to make dinner and get my proper food organised, but I’m going to have to make sure that I still try to make the correct choices wherever I am. It has also made me realise just how on the ball I’m going to have to be for the rest of my life. There aren’t any easy roads where I can sit down, munch on a bag of chips and not have it affect me in some way. Pity it’s taken a bad couple of weeks into such a great program for me to realise that huh?

So haven’t had dinner yet, and to be honest, not really sure that I will tonight. Not so hungry with all the mucus I have sitting in my head right now, but I shall put my daily stats up a little later.

12WBT days nineteen to twenty four – Hard times

Well how is everyone, I feel as if a part of my life has been missing over the last few days without my daily blogging and my daily intakes being written down. I’ve been off having a lovely time camping and spending time with my family during the school holidays. I would like to say that I have been eating fantastically and exercising like a mad woman, because for once I have so much time. But alas, neither of those things is true. I had everything planned out really well for camping, took my food with me, but unfortunately I didn’t get a chance to eat my own food. We went to stay with my in-laws who are living in their caravan while waiting for their house to be built, and I just assumed that they would have their microwave set up and that I would be able to reheat all my lovely “here’s one I prepared earlier food”, but nope, it wasn’t to be. So while I had fairly good choices for breakfast and lunch, my dinners were whatever anyone else had. Which, unfortunately, consisted of a lot of fried food. I was pretty upset with myself. So you would think I’d have been making some better choices now that we are back home, but I haven’t been making fantastic choices. I need to get myself organised again, before I stuff up all the good work that I have done so far. But I have to admit, that this week, I’m losing my motivation. I don’t want to stop the program, I don’t want to stop the change to my life, but this week is really testing me I have to admit 🙁

So weigh day was yesterday. I lost 1.3kg which I was extremely chuffed about. I haven’t done my measurements yet, I will be doing them tomorrow or Saturday, and as soon as I have done them, I will put them up here for the world to see. I also plan on getting back to my daily blog with my daily stats. As of tomorrow!!! It’s so great to be back, so how did you all do?

12WBT day thirteen – crap day, very unhappy with myself

Today we had a family day. When I say family day, I mean Mick, myself and Brodie go out and do something. We only get Brodie to stay with us every six months and only for a couple of weeks during school holidays, so the time that we have together is always very special. When I started the 12 Week Body Transformation challenge I didn’t take into account that Brodie would be here only a couple of weeks into the challenge and that it was going to take some serious organising (which I think we all know I’m not the best at). So today we headed out for a day at our favourite small town, and headed up to one of our favourite national park areas where we know we can have an open fire and do some good old fashioned cooking outdoors. Of course on the way there, there is always the obligatory stop at our favourite small town bakery where they do “The Best” pies and pasties.

So what did I do today? I started the day off with a bowl of Rice Bubbles. Something low in calories that would fill the hole in my stomach (I’m still asking myself why did I pick Rice Bubbles of all things?) and then followed that up with a brunch of a homemade Cornish Pasty from the bakery. Then we finally got to our camping/open fire cooking place and I had a little lamb chop (all fat removed) and a bit of steak, all grilled over the open campfire. So much crap today. Finished off nicely with a Margherita Pizza for dinner, which is the only thing I’ve eaten today low in calories.

While I know that I’ve eaten pretty badly, there is a part of me that just wants to buck the system and say “So what”? I still want to be able to enjoy life, and I want to be able to have a bit of a treat every now and then, and I want our time with Brodie to be special and to do fun things together. So if that involves having a bloody pasty, then hell, why shouldn’t I? Do I really want my whole life to be about counting calories? Please don’t get me wrong. I am still 100% committed to doing the 12WBT and following the principles I learn(ed) for the rest of my life, but in amongst that, there has to be a bit of give and take for times when we want to just let loose and live a little. Admittedly I might have to let the living happen in another ten weeks or so, but I think then, maybe one day every now and then is surely not going to kill me right?

So without further ado and more complaining, daily stats for the day (beware they’re pretty poor):

FoodCalories in
B1 cup Rice Bubbles and 1/2 cup milk170
S1 Cornish pasty500
L30g Lamb and 130g Beef – grilled296
DMargherita pizza with mushrooms350

ExerciseCalories out

No exercise today0
Calories surplus/defecit-521

12WBT day twelve – Quite sore tonight

Had a great day, quite high in the calorie intake, but struggling already with Brodie being here and having an extra (and young) person to cook for and making sure that she gets all her daily requirements, while still trying to stay within my calorie range. We had a really big bike ride planned for today – pretty much the same one we did last week, with maybe an extra km or two tacked on. So I made sure I had a good lunch with the carbs to give me the energy for the afternoon. But 20 minutes into the ride Brodie had enough, and wanted to turn around and go home. We managed to drag it out for another 20 minutes or so, but that was it. So when we got home, I had to do a good workout with Zumba. I managed to burn up just over 900 calories though so that was good. Feeling quite sore tonight, which is also a good thing.

Not looking forward to tomorrow however as we are heading out for a day trip and food is going to be a bit of an issue, so am going to have to work out how to handle that. So stats for today:

FoodCalories in
B1 wholemeal muffin with 1t margarine & 1t vegemite160
L2 muffins, with cream cheese, chicken and salad565
S1 strawberry Forme satisfy yoghurt85
DBeef with creamy mushroom sauce & spinach with sweet potato435

ExerciseCalories out

46.39 Bike ride. Avg HR 137 (71%), Max HR 162 (87%)431
49.20 Zumba Cardio Party. Avg HR 145 (78%), Max HR 161 (87%)504
Calories surplus/defecit-1527

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