Weigh in day
Previous weight: 102.7kg.
Today’s weight: 102.0kg.
So I updated my weight on the 12WBT weigh in page today after yesterdays weigh in and I was confronted with my weight loss graph. What I saw almost made me cry. In the 6 weeks I’ve officially been doing the 12WBT all I have lost is 2.7kg!
What the hell is going on with me that I have lost so much of my mojo? Two weeks ago I was at 100.7kg – I could almost taste the double digits, and then I went to Adelaide, gained 2kg and am having such a slow weight loss again. When I set my goals for this round in pre-season task 3 I had my one month goals set down to be at 98kg by the end of February. Here we are nearly at the end of March and I’m not even nearly there yet. So my overall goal of getting to 85kg by mid May when Round 1, 2012 12WBT is over, are nowhere near achievable. I think I’m going to be lucky if I even manage to get to 95kg at the rate I’m going and this saddens me.
I said that I wasn’t going to worry about what the scales said, so long as I was having consistent weight loss and that I was feeling better about myself. But I’m not really having consistent weight loss as you can see by the other graph below (which shows my overall weight loss over the last 12 weeks of this year vs. pre-season weight loss vs. official weight loss). I’m up one week, I’m down the next. The time that I was having good weight loss was before 12WBT officially started. Which is making me wonder what the hell is going on with me – am I sabotaging myself, am I just plain sucky, WTF is going on?
All I know is that I want to lose weight. I want to be slimmer and I want to be healthy. I admit I’m still struggling with the whole concept of exercise – I still just don’t like it, but I do it (grudgingly) but what is it going to take to just have those graphs go down, rather than up, down, up, up , down, up, down… you get the drift.
Okay, rant over. Here’s to a better day tomorrow!