I don’t know what to say tonight. I was having such a good day today until I got a message from a cousin overseas – one who I have never met, telling me that I shall not defame my stepfather, that he’d written to her about it. It came totally out of the blue and spun me for a six. I’ve had many issues with my stepfather over the last 18 months and I’m summarising my feelings here by saying that there is definitely no love lost there. (If you’re interested in knowing more about what started it all, you can read about it here , here and here).
I have so many emotions going on around in my head right now that I just don’t quite know what to say or how to say it, so I will have to leave it here for now until I can find out what to say and how to say it.
AlisonMarch 8, 2012 at 9:54 am
You are allowing someone you have never met to dictate your emotions? Does that make any kind of sense to you right now?
I say this because you’ve never met your cousin, and yet you are choosing your emotions based on what he/she said. You know the accusations are false, so why are you allowing it to dictate your emotions? Particularly since you know the types of things your stepfather is capable of?
Something to consider 🙂
TinaMarch 8, 2012 at 11:15 am
You are so right Alison. I don’t know why I let it get to me, but every time he pops his evil head up – either himself, or through someone else – I just fall into a heap and I don’t know why. I have such a hard time controlling myself when it happens 🙁
But in this case, I took the very decisive action of telling her that she had no idea what she was talking about, and then deleted her. I will continue to do that with anyone else who feels the need to tell me crap like she did, no matter who they are. Slowly, but surely I will cull these people out of my life 🙂